Unbearable Agony: My Fight Against the Enigmatic Pain of Cluster Headaches

It began on a dreary weekday morning in the autumn of 2016. I worked as a teacher, attempting to manage a new group of students, when a sudden sensation bloomed behind my one eye. This was followed by rapid shocks, similar to lightning bolts. As the school day progressed, the discomfort eased and then returned with greater intensity. Multiple times that day I handed over a teaching assistant with worksheets and hurried to the school bathroom to soak my face with cold water. I tried aspirin, but the pain remained unbearable.

The headaches appeared frequently that fall, and once more in the spring, soon forming an yearly cycle. The autumn months were the worst, then February and March. I could anticipate the routine: a warning sensation in the morning, early pangs on the train, full-blown pain in class by mid-morning. In 2019, a doctor finally sent me to a specialist and I was diagnosed with cluster headaches.

Cluster headaches often begin with intense pain behind one eye that persists for three hours.

About 1 in 1000 people are affected by the disorder, and males are more frequently affected. Attacks usually begin with sudden, severe pain around one eye that reaches its peak within a short time and lasts for up to three hours. Attacks occur in cycles, daily or multiple times a day, and are accompanied by red or watery eyes, drooping eyelids or facial perspiration. I have an episodic type, which occurs in periodic bouts; others have continuous attacks, defined by the absence of long pain-free periods.

What connects patients is the severity. One research paper rated the sensation at 9.7 out of 10, more severe than bone fractures or pancreatitis. A separate found a significant percentage of cluster patients reported thoughts of self-harm amid bouts; the figure dropped to 4% when they were not in pain.

Val Hobbs, in her seventies, a chronic sufferer from Pembrokeshire, isn't surprised. Her episodes began when she was a toddler. “I would hurl myself on the ground and bang my head. That was attributed to being spoiled,” she says. Her symptoms deteriorated through childhood. Alcohol in her teens, similar to many causes, made things more intense. After drinking sherry at her graduation party, she remembers hardly being able to see on the transport home.

Her relatives often mistook her episodes as drunken episodes. Understanding finally came from her parent and then from her husband, Rod. “I was very fortunate to find such an understanding person,” she says. Hobbs took clerical work after relocating, but often hid her condition. She was fired from one job, in part due to absences during attacks. Her breakthrough identification came in the early 2000s at a specialist hospital.

Still, the failure to organize life around erratic pain took its effect. She especially disliked being unable to plan outings, being seen as flaky as a colleague, and even having to be cared for by her children during the incapacitation caused by the worst episodes. “It robs you of the small liberties we don't value until they're gone,” she says. She remembers winning tickets for a significant concert, only to have an episode inside a facility.


Headaches have been described throughout history. “The earliest account of headache originates from the Mesopotamians in antiquity,” write authors in a publication on the topic. They linked the disease to an evil spirit who attacked his victims' heads.

Ancient healing records propose bizarre treatments for what some experts would classify as a migraine. In the middle ages, severe headache was recognised as a separate disorder, with therapies ranging from bloodletting to other, more folk cures.

It was a European doctor who provided the initial comprehensive account of a cluster-type attack. In his writings, he speaks of a patient “suffering with a very severe headache occurring and disappearing each day at fixed hours”.

The disorder were only officially recognised by global medical committees in the late 1980s. From the 1960s to the late 1990s, they were thought to be caused by a problem with a major artery that delivers blood to the brain. Leading experts in diagnosing the condition note this.

In 1998, scientists released the findings of a research project for which they had triggered attacks in patients and monitored the attacks in a brain scanner. The data, published in a prominent journal, showed increased activity of the hypothalamus, which is responsible for human sleep-wake cycles, when patients were in pain, and a deactivation when they recovered.

Despite such advances, identification remains slow. Jamie Charteris's symptoms began in the 1980s and felt like “a balloon being inflated behind my one eye”. GPs thought he had a sinus issue; he had multiple surgeries before eventually being correctly identified in 2014, after a physician researched his symptoms.

Specialists say delays in diagnosing and treatment occur because patients are rarely seen mid-attack. “You're tired and depressed, but not in severe pain,” one says. He works by eliminating other primary headache disorders, such as tension-type headache, before diagnosing the disorder. A detailed history is crucial: on which part of the head do symptoms occur? For how much time? What season? Are there precipitating factors, such as certain foods? Specific characteristics such as redness, drooping eyelids and stuffy nose help confirm cluster headaches. Once diagnosed, patients may be sent to specialist clinics. But a lot of first arrive to A&E or are given inadequate therapies.

A charity trustee, in her late seventies, has suffered from the condition for the majority of her life, although she has been free from an attack since 2016. When she was in her twenties, she had her molars extracted because dentists misunderstood her pain. She thinks dentists still need much more awareness. When another patient sought help from a support group, it was Chapman who responded. The author recalls calling a support line during an attack in early 2021; a reassuring advisor guided them through oxygen therapy and drugs until the attack passed.

Official guidance on treatment recommend that patients are offered high-flow oxygen and/or a anti-migraine medication administered by injection. No oral painkillers or strong analgesics should be used. Preventive choices include a blood pressure medication, which apparently helps manage the attacks of well-known individuals.

But consultant neurologists believe the official guidelines need updating to reflect a clearer treatment pathway and help GPs avoid misprescribing. For periodic patients, timing is critical: “The length of the bout determines the treatment.” Brief cycles with infrequent attacks are handled with abortive treatment only. More prolonged or more severe bouts require preventative medications such as certain drugs, sometimes combined with corticosteroids. A significant number of patients also receive a greater occipital nerve block during a cycle – an injection into the area of the head where the pain is that reduces nerve activity.

The official guidelines need updating to reflect a
Deanna Moore DVM
Deanna Moore DVM

A seasoned gaming analyst with over a decade of experience in online casinos, specializing in slot mechanics and player strategies.